Saturday, December 28, 2013

In Quiet Silence...The Light of Peace

Wisdom 18:14,15, 21. Written 200-199 BCE
 
(14, 15) For while all things were in quiet silence, and the night was in the midst of her course, Thy almighty word leapt down from heaven from thy royal throne, as a fierce conqueror into the midst of the land of destruction.

(21) For a blameless man made haste to pray for the people, bringing forth the shield of his ministry, prayer, and by incense making supplication, withstood the wrath, and put an end to the calamity, showing that he was thy servant.

The first of these passages has been variously used for Introits and Benedictions in the Roman mass for Christmas and Epiphany. The words proclaim the arrival of the Word, the Logos, for which the original meaning, per Heraclitus (ca. 535–475 BC) was, “a principle of order and knowledge.” Later, Logos was used by Stoic philosophers to describe “the divine animating principle of the universe.” And even later, the author of John’s Gospel (ca. 90 CE) called Logos the divine incarnation, the Christ potential in the man, Jesus. Isaiah predicts this event: Isaiah 9:6 (701-681 BC) For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counselor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

A man, an incarnate human, “the principle of divine order and knowledge,” a vessel for the “divine animating force of the universe” would break through the darkness, “the quiet silence of night,” and put an end to the chaos and destruction by the people on earth… And this person, blameless, praying and making supplication under the shield of his ministry, this human, would infuse Life with peacemaking. This Prince of Peace.

~*~ 

Holy and Compassionate God, Source of Life, Spirit of Goodness, Prince of Peace, may we be quiet enough to allow your light to cut through our chaos. May we, in the example of Jesus, be humble enough to order our worlds with prayer and supplication, rather than noise and defensiveness. May the power of peace so full and present in this season be our Logos in every season.
 
Amen      _/\_Peggy

Sunday, December 22, 2013

FOURTH SUNDAY IN ADVENT: PEACE – BE STILL


The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness
has not overcome it. The true light that gives light
to everyone is coming into the world. John 1:5,9

"Every gift of divine awareness benefits our receptivity for a new and greater gift. Every divine gift increases our openness and longing to receive what is higher and greater. To the extent that God is boundless in His giving, our souls are equally boundless in their capacity to receive." 
 

Just as Mary, in complete trust, emptied herself to receive our Lord, Jesus; when our hearts are open and free from preconceptions, when we desire nothing more earnestly than to be filled with the beauty and grace of God, then the gift arrives; the Christ is born in us…again and again and again.

~Meister Eckhart (1260 – c. 1327) was a German theologian, philosopher and mystic.
 
May you bring the quietness of mind and openness of heart to allow the light to birth new life within you every day, in all circumstances. Peace is the ever-evolving outcome of the integrated mind-body - soul. The grace of God in Life is magnified and expressed by our soul's receptive,"Yes!"
 
Namaste and Christmas Blessings! Peggy

Monday, December 16, 2013

THIRD SUNDAY OF ADVENT - JOY

What joy we experience at the birth of something new!
When we see a new home or a new car, when
we make a new friend, when we hear a new piece of music that touches us, or when we realize and understand something for the very first time; perhaps something that clarifies some confusion - a new insight. Think of all the ways we can realize something new!
 
Arthur Zajonc is a physicist, author of several books related to science, mind, and spirit and a   Buddhist friend of the Dalai Lama. He is also a  professor at Amherst College and president of Mind and Life Institute. He explained the process of coming to a new idea like this:

Sitting quietly we hold our existing knowledge and its implications. We have thought about the way these puzzle pieces fit together. We focus our attention on the point at which we can think it through no further, the very edge of our understanding or the place we meet the resistance of the unknown. Hold that. Look thoroughly at it in your minds eye and then let it go. Let it go so completely that it doesn't even seem to exist any longer, like turning your back on a wall. Be still. Be empty. Release resistance...completely. Wait. ...And a new way of thinking, a new way of perceiving, a new birth will take place.

Of course, this is the essence of any silent meditation practice and it explains why meditation can allow us to deepen our awareness.

This practice, Zajonc says, is the way Einstein came to his theory of relativity. In almost a sleeping consciousness, his variables came together in a new way..an epiphany or a revelation. Perhaps this is why Einstein says, "“We can not solve our problems with the same level of thinking that created them.” He also said, ""A new idea comes suddenly and in a rather intuitive way. That means it is not reached by conscious logical conclusions."

There is a lot more that can be said about this process of  CHANGE....of new awareness, of becoming.
(Hegel) thesis plus antithesis = synthesis or
(Gurdjieff) affirming plus denying = reconciling or
(Whitehead) process of occasions with entities plus prehension of subjective aim = new entity

These scholars describe how change takes place: whether changing the mind or changing the social milieu or creating a new being. New "beings," be they thoughts or people are created by a surplus of directed energy meeting resistance and overcoming it by letting go. What is known reality drives against what is unknown reality and, in the void of unknowing, new reality is born.

And so, from an Advent perspective, we wait in darkness. We embrace quiet. We LOVE by opening ourselves to this process of change. We HOPE, with a certainty that is more like Trust in the unknowing, the darkness. We realize JOY can be found through the process of awareness, the birth of the new coming through these postures: Waiting in LOVE, with HOPE...WAITING for light to break through the limits of darkness. 
 
“Where is he who has been born as king of the Jews?” MT 2:2

“Pay attention now to where the birth of Jesus has taken place. This eternal birth takes place in the soul totally in the way it takes place in eternity, neither less nor more. For it is only one birth and this birth takes place in the being and foundation of the soul....

God is present, effective and powerful in all things. He is only generative, however, in the soul. For all creatures are a footprint of God, but the soul is formed like God, according to its nature. Whatever perfection is to enter the soul, be it divine, unique light or grace or happiness, all of it must come into the soul of a necessity through this birth of divine awareness and in no other way. Wait only for the birth of Christ within yourself, And you will discover all blessing and all consolation, all bliss, all being, and all truth.”

~ Meister Eckhart 1260 – c. 1327 German theologian, philosopher and mystic.
 
JOY IS TO BEHOLD GOD IN EVERYTHING!
 ~ Julian of Norwich, 1342 – 1416 English Anchoress
 

May you be blessed to hold this holy process in your silent, waiting heart, as the baby is created in all the splendor of God's perfect New....may the JOY of Love and Hope be yours!
 
_/\_Peggy


 

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

Takers and Givers – inspired by Eric Butterworth

I woke Empty
With a hole
In the middle of me
And my oatmeal did not
Even fill it up.

Was it there yesterday?
How could it have gotten so big so fast?

When I walked to my car the cold wind blew through it and gave me chills.

No coat to cover this hole.

At the office people said,
“Good morning!”
And their words floated right
Through the hole to the
Other side.

At lunchtime
I ate a sandwich
Hoping it would fill me up.
My boss popped his head inside the door and said,
“Are you doing okay?”

“No.”

The hole was still there.

When I went home that night
I called a friend
And had nothing to say,
I ate ice cream
It numbed my tongue,
I watched a movie
And fell asleep.

Sometime
In the middle of the night,
In the deep
Darkness of the Taking
I said, “Enough of this hole!”
I reached through my belly
and grabbed the world.
Delicious!
This will fill my hole.

I gobbled it up like fried chicken
Finger-lickin’ good!
It slid down my gullet
And landed inside of me.
Satiated, filled…
…No…..Empty.

Then promptly,
It sucked me in
Inverted me like
A black hole
Vortex
Turned me inside out.
I floated in nothingness
Attached to nothing by
The length of my gut
Omentum dangling like
Rickrack in a low rider,
Tethered
Like an astronaut’s
Breathing gear.
But no breath
Just Emptiness.

Afloat in deep silence
No time to speak of
No me to speak.
No feeling
No form
Exposed, vulnerable
I touched everything
Owned it all
Was at its mercy.

Sensation
Overwhelming threshold
Of perception,
Such pain I could not bear
And thus, did not.

The Universe
On the other hand,
Held me tender
Naked sinew.
In submission
I rested.

And then,
Eternity.

I
Changed…transformed…
Found the lost
Fullness of Grace.

Consumed by the Taker.
Somehow in silence
Redeemed by the Giver.

Silence spoke,
“All is you. You are all.”
Nothing
Everything.

I woke Full
With a hole
In the middle of me

Was it there yesterday?
I don’t remember.

All I know is
Today
When I reach into
That hole
The world pours out of me.


© Peggy Beatty Dec 2010


This is a little different than my usual blog. Its pretty different than my usual poetry too. I wrote this after reading these passages from Eric Butterworth. Its about consumption and kenosis and grace:
 
"The takers are the people who believe their lives will always be the total of what they can get from the world. They are always thinking get, get, get. They plan and scheme ways to get what they want in money, in love, in happiness, and in all kinds of good... but whatever may be their spiritual ideals or lack of any, no matter what they take, they can never know peace or security or fulfillment.

The givers, on the other hand, are convinced life is a giving process. Thus their subtle motivation in all their ways is to give themselves away, in love, in service, and in all the many helpful ways they can invest themselves. They are always secure, for they intuitively know that their good flows from within."
Eric Butterworth

We live in a culture that drives us to consumerism and external fulfillment from the moment we can watch TV. Which is not to say that we aren't made that way to begin with. The "mine" stage of a toddler is certainly about getting what I need from outside myself, and rightfully so. Its a good survival  mentality for a 2 year old. The thing is, when we mature, when we realize that we won't always get what we think we need from outside ourselves, then we learn that our needs are not so plentiful to begin with. We learn to back away from always looking out there with expectation and, hopefully, we realize, that all we need is right here, right now. We draw our expectations into the presence of Now, a time/space intersect. Kairos, the "moment of opportunity,"  that graced moment (moment used figuratively here) when, if we open ourselves fully to life, we realize the paradox of being empty and full at the very same time.

May you find yourself enjoying many moments of opportunity, as you open humbly to the Spirit of the Universe, the flow of life, the arms of eternal Christ...may your taking become your gracious giving as the world flows through you~

Namaste, Peggy _/\_


About Kenosis~

In Christian theology, kenosis is the concept of the 'self-emptying' of one's own will and becoming entirely receptive to God and the divine will. Kenosis, or self-emptying, is only possible through humility and, in a Monotheistic sense, presupposes that one seeks union with God. Or stated another way, one seeks to humbly remove all barriers to Love. Kenosis is essentially the same as non-attachment in Buddhism. Relative to human nature, kenosis denotes the continual redirection of spiritual energies (self will and externally directed neediness) toward Loving humility.  Kenosis is a paradox and a mystery since "emptying oneself" in fact fills the person with divine grace and results in union with God. Kenosis is the process of transcending one's attachments to psychological ego needs. 

Wednesday, November 27, 2013

This Much I Know: I Cannot Know

 Everything has its time and place.
Ego is not in control of what’s happening.
LIFE is in control of what’s happening.
To insist that something can empower us,
all at once, to dive into ourselves
and see anything and everything we need to
see to awaken, is working at odds
with human experience.

Everything happens in its time. We’re not in control. This isn’t something we want to hear, though. It isn’t something our mind wants. Mostly we want to hear things that empower our sense of control. And we radically push away anything that does not empower or sense of control.

When you start to accept what you see as true – not what I say, but your experience – that’s when everything starts to change.

All I know is that I am. Everything else is in a state of flux and uncertainty. I don’t know what the outcome of that flux and uncertainty is. But I know that I don’t know. And this knowledge has not disempowered me. Quite the contrary, Life has a part to play through me, and I play that part. I am in union with the part of Life that changes all the time, no longer arguing with it, Life gets to play it’s part through my agreement. And it seems that when we’re in the deepest state of agreement, the part Life plays though us is very satisfying.

~adapted from Adyashanti, The End of Your World
Art: Helena Nelson-Reed
 
The phrase "I know that I know nothing" or "I know one thing: that I know nothing" (Ancient Greek: ἓν οἶδα ὅτι οὐδὲν οἶδα hèn oîda ὃti oudèn oîda; Latin: scio me nihil scire or scio me nescire), sometimes called the Socratic paradox, is a well-known saying derived from Plato's account of the Greek philosopher Socrates. This is the nondual perception of a contemplative/mystic. She senses (knows what is) and she intuits (cannot know all that is). this is, in Christian theological lingo - kataphatic perception (I know what is;concept embodied) and apophatic perception (I know what is not;concept cannot be fully embodied).
 
Everything changes when we accept that the ultimate nature of, and outcome for, reality is Mystery and always Mystery. This is something theology and science have in common. Science can only determine what is objectifiable (created form). Theology imagines subjectively and attempts to impose it on the objective (story, philosophy). Neither can define What Is, for if it could, it would no longer be What Is. And BOTH are accurate depictions of What Is, within their own context, for they describe the same thing, What Is. The God of Israel's "I Am" is the most expansive thing we can put in words about "What Is." What we do not know, we cannot define with words. Or stated differently, we can only partially define with words. What we cannot define must be assumed larger than what we can, for it lies beyond and includes what we can define.
 
Hardwired for Truth as a highest priority, I have learned that in the relative world of physical form there are infinite truths, depending on context. In the absolute world of mysterious eternity there is but one truth, and it is mystery and will always remain mystery. The paradox is, mystery (what I do not know) contains all that I do know in physical form - all the words and concepts that I can imagine, everything that I say "I know" and more, all relative truths, and it is in mystery that we dwell as both object (what is known) and observer (the mysterious one who knows....and knows nothing).

And I chose to have Wisdom rather than the light, because the splendor of her never yields to sleep. — Wisdom 7:10
 
Rest in the Mystery! Therein is the peace that passeth understanding. _/\_Peggy

Friday, September 27, 2013

Presence - Awakening and Keeping Faith

This is about presence:

Bodhicitta, the awakened mind,
Is known in brief to have two aspects:
First, aspiring, bodhicitta in intention;
Then active bodhicitta, practical engagement.

From bodhicitta in intention
Great results arise for those still turning in the wheel of life;
Yet merit does not rise from it in ceaseless streams
As is the case with active bodhicitta.

For when, with irreversible intent,
The mind embraces bodhicitta,
Willing to set free the endless multitude of beings,
In that instant, from that moment on,

A great and unremitting stream,
A strength of wholesome merit,
Even during sleep and inattention,
Rises equal to the vastness of the sky.

Shantideva, The Way of the Bodhisattva, 15, 17-19

Bodhicitta is the (student of the) awakened mind. Verse 15 points out that the awakened mind takes 2 distinct aspects: aspiring with intention and active engagement. For Christians, this should ring some bells. Its the Mary (Being) and Martha (Doing) story. The awakened mind being practices PRESENCE - aspiring to be in the moment so that any intention directed into action will be mindful. If you think about it, intention can be both aspiration and action. We can set our intention on being present and also on doing mindful action. So the student of the awakened mind, you and I, Mary or Martha, the bodhicitta, must always practice Being Present (as Mary was) to the mind of higher consciousness (or the Christ-mind, if you are Christian) in order to bring mindfulness to action, to the Martha, the Doer.

Shantideva then tells us that the bodhisattva of intention is great for Being, but in order to truly put practice into action in a way that will "be the gift that keeps on giving," so to speak, we must bring that cultivated Presence of being to our action, to our doing. This is what is meant by “merit rising from a ceaseless stream.” The presence of the practitioner must be brought to the action. Mindfulness in practice equals mindfulness in action.

Now there are other implications of this mindfulness practice. One is that we can make discernments about our actions in a more conscientious way if we take the time to be present/mindful. So in verse 18, when Shantideva speaks of "willing to set free the endless multitudes of beings," he is saying, we can sort the voices or thoughts in our heads that direct our actions, in a responsible way if we practice presence or meditation so that our actions will be directed skillfully. In meditation practice, or through cultivating presence, we learn to free our thoughts and allow for inner wisdom to inform an action intention. This part requires what Christians would call "faith," because many of us have been taught to doubt the validity of our inner truth. But "truly I say to you" all people have the wisdom of ages available to them from within, stored in the unconscious mind from literally thousands of generations of those who proceeded us in life.

Hebrews 11:1 "...faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see."

Do you have the faith that if you can free yourself from the busy mind of thoughts that quickly directs you to act according to the safety of ego, that you might make better, more skillful choices of action?

Ego security is always on patrol in our thoughts. Ego defends us, always helps us save face, be right, come out the winner, even if its at someone else expense. Our rapid response from ego is like the Martha character who would rather her house be perfect and the food be delicious than spend time present to the honorable guest, Jesus. Let me tell you what drives the ego at the very roots of its arising: fear. The ego is our defense for survival, for power and control, for esteem. And all of those "needs" arise from fear, if we look deeply and honestly at them.

Shantideva tells us in such beautiful prose that when we "set the multitudes of beings free," when we quiet the thoughts that direct our actions like voices, for example:

"… there is the lover, the fool, the cynic, the optimist, the rancorous, the generous, the unforgiving, the doubter, the believer, the narcissist, the extrovert, the coward, the nihilist, the compassionate, the despicable, the serious, the vain, the self-righteous, the saint, the selfish, the atheist, the violent, the meek the capricious, the arrogant and the humble." Raymond Carl Sigrist, Apophatic Mysticism

"A great an unremitting stream of wholesome merit...rises to the vastness of the sky." We tap into higher consciousness, what some call Buddha-nature and others call Christ-mind. Higher consciousness is expanded awareness, a consistent mindfulness that becomes who I am so that when I direct my action, which is truly what humans are on the planet to do - to act and interact, - my action issues forth with my highest integrity of being.

Actions play out in many ways, of course. Have you ever made a mindful choice or been so present in your activity that you seem to lose track of time, or you feel a sense of such bliss or synergy that you don’t have to even think about whether or not you are on the right track? Most of us have felt this. Often we realize we just, “had the best time ever,” in retrospect.  That’s because you are PRESENT in those moments.

When we learn to be PRESENT, that is, to trust or have faith or “aspire” always to our bodhisattva of intention (our Christ-mind, our Buddha nature, our inner truth; that inner wisdom of the ages), when we have faith in that, our actions will derive from our highest consciousness and they will transcend all the thoughts or voices that we use to qualify, minimize, analyze and otherwise ground our reality in rational thinking. It feels like acting on a different plane of consciousness and it is. This is where we meet the story of Peter walking on water.
 
Few people trust themselves, their inner truth, this way. Highly intuitive people do, but we all are capable of using intuition. Many people look to an external authority to tell them what is true, or they may say, “what is right.” But “right” is the wrong word. “Just” is a better word and it means balance or equanimity, not right or wrong.

When read only with the rational mind, the story of Peter walking on the water is described in a way that appears to seek external authorization or assistance. In fact the whole story of Jesus is widely interpreted in this way, setting Jesus the Christ outside of our own being, as if Jesus is meant to represent someone else, not our self. There is another way, a transformative way, of understanding the story. It is through awakened intuition or a "spiritual" or wisdom way of comprehension. The rational way of understanding story makes great use of the human tendency for projection. Many of us need an object upon which to project our glory and our failings. Many of us need someone else to “save” us, to love us, to keep us on track. But let’s get real. In reality, we must do these things for our self. The wisdom way, or contemplative way of understanding scripture identifies the self with Jesus, the enfleshed man of action and the mind of Christ, the awakened or enlightened consciousness. Buddhist philosophy does not use projection. It speaks directly the the responsible awakening individual without an avatar. Removing projection from the Buddhist wisdom literature, facilitates, for many of us, recognition of inner truth. We are not tempted to look to another for blame or for authority, but rightly assume with confidence, responsibility for our own being and action.

True empowerment, the true healing (Shandtideva even says, "A strength of wholesome merit,") comes from realizing our self as capable of having a mind of enlightened consciousness. Peter doesn’t trust his inner truth. Unenlightened minds don’t. They rely on law and rules to set their authority. They are not ready for wisdom. So Peter asks Jesus to give him the faith to walk on the water and Jesus says, "Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” In other words, have faith in what your eyes do not tell you! Don't let your ego prevent you from confidence in your higher power, your mind of presence and intention, your inner truth and wisdom of the ages. Peter steps out boldly. He sees Jesus and he feels empowered. Just hearing Jesus’ encouragement, Peter trusts. He has faith that "Christ will save him," which is to say, he no longer doubts his own capacity because Jesus is there. In truth, he just needed the encouragement. He is relying fully on his own mind of Christ, his highest nature...the awakened bodhisattva in action, through which higher consciousness (merit) flows in ceaseless streams, allowing presence (the bodhisattva of aspiration and intention) to guide his steps.
He is in the ZONE! J

Shortly before dawn Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake. When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified. “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.

But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.”
“Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”

“Come,” he said.

Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus. 30 But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”

Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?  Matt 14:25-31
 
Oops! Peter lost it! His ego fear let his eyes tell him he could not walk on water; that doing so is physically impossible. He relinquished his faith in a higher power to the rationale of the world as it appeared to his eyes. Don’t we all? We can hardly continuously act from our mind of presence, as fallible and ego-protected humans. But we can do better. We can keep practicing contemplative prayer and meditation, methods that bring us to presence and mindfulness and can be translated to skillful, mindful actions.  Contemplative practice, it’s that simple. We must take quiet time for self reflection, to quiet the ego thinking, to allow inner truth and wisdom to make itself known to the discerning mind.  This is the ultimate way of being human. To bring our inner wisdom and peace through presence to all our actions in the world, so that harmony, balance, equanimity and justice are the way that we live in relationship with our self, with each other and with the planet. This is how we live in “a great and unremitting stream, a strength of wholesome merit, rising equal to the vastness of the sky.” This is how we learn to walk on water.

Namaste _/\_ Peggy


Shantideva was an 8th-century Indian Buddhist scholar at Nalanda University and an adherent of the Madhyamaka philosophy of Nagarjuna. Shantideva is particularly renowned as the author of the Bodhicaryavatara (sometimes also called the Bodhisattvacaryavatara). An English translation of the Sanskrit version of the Bodhicaryavatara is sometimes called, A Guide to the Bodhisattva's Way Of Life or Entering the Path of Enlightenment. It is a long poem describing the process of enlightenment from the first thought to full buddhahood and is still studied by Mahayana and Vajrayana Buddhists today.


Saturday, September 21, 2013


ECONOMY AND SELF VALUE

As I have been studying first century culture, I have come to realize the impact that social economies have played in determining where we place value.
 
To Love is to value.
 
It seems to me that as we began to value things as a society external to ourselves - money being the most impactful - we also devalued each other and, more importantly, our inner self. (Substitute Love for value in any of that last statement).
 
So all that we have been saying about needing to love ones self in order to love another, in order to love for the sake of loving or from an identity as Love, and not for the sake of needing someone else to love you/value you, can be framed in this social tendency to value things outside the self - thus neglecting to know the self as that of the greatest value; the value from which all other beneficial value springs forth. ("Love the Lord your God" means love yourself - God in you).
 
I have always been intrigued with the Christian use of terms coming from the Greek culture that externalize the dynamics of self-loving (value)  - all based on the term Oikos - eco  or household/family - these translations from Hebrew coming at the same time as the economic culture of society was developing moved the "household" and everything that is associated with a balanced and loving household, exterior to the individual psyche or soul. Our interpretations of value in a religious sense began to emphasize how we behaved more than who we are.

Incidentally, Ecumenicus (Latin) comes from Greek oikoumenikos, oikein to inhabit, oikos house. The spirit inhabits (oikein) the same house: the body, the community, humanity, the Earth...the cosmos...

"Do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own..." (1 Cor. 6:19).

Who is living in you?

While we humans are both doers and be-ers, we express something active or we hold it as our "being" nature (identity), we seem to default our most obvious sense of self very often to the doing, the active expression of desire, which is external and "worldly" expression of the self. While within, in the being, is the True Self, the expression of God self. When we are present in the being self, we remember who we truly are. And the do-er should always emanate from the Be-er. The active Lover should always emanate from the Love, that we are - our divine nature. We don't 'purify' or find our essence in the Doing in the same way we can find it in the Being.

Personal integrity is your first priority. Your I AM is your relationship with God. You cannot be honest or effective or TRUE in the world unless you have your "house" in order first. This is why you must learn to BE and let your DOing come from your BEing. 

_/\_Peggy